Today is a promised day that comes once every month. One year ago, I mustered the courage to make the first contact and secured a promise for us to meet periodically. That time, I was so nervous I thought my heart was going to explode, but I was also overjoyed knowing that he remembered me.
āLady Kotone, youāve put quite the effort into your appearance today.āāItās an important day, after all. Though no matter how much I try, using makeup is the one thing I canāt seem to improve on.āāPlease just give up on that. Your talent when it comes to makeup is simply disastrous.ā
When I tried it by myself, I ended up looking like a completely different person. In a bad kind of way. I can never forget how mother screamed and fainted after seeing me in that state. Ever since then, Misaki has been in charge of my facial cosmetics.
āSorry for always troubling you for this, Misaki.āāIf you think that way, then please give me a reward.āāSakiko will scold me for it, so no.ā
Misaki loves sweets more than anything else, but her mother, Sakiko, had previously warned me against giving her more than whatās necessary. Though on the other hand, I can make Misaki do whatever I want in exchange for sweets.
āNevertheless, I still canāt believe that you found interest in men other than the master.āāMy father is the way he is, after all. I realized that I canāt just obsess about him.ā
If you want to enjoy life, you shouldnāt hyper-fixate on one single thing. This was something he taught me. Itās good to take interest in various things, to experience and learn from them.
āSeeing you grow into a proper member of the Kisaragi family makes me happy.āāThe twins are also proper, if you ask me.āāNo, those two have completely inherited the Kisaragi karma.ā
They do fawn on me a bit much, but theyāre otherwise normal. Though I find it weird that they, or at least my younger sister, still want to take baths with me at their age. I appreciate that my younger brother has started to refrain from this. After all, while we may be siblings, itās still problematic with me being already a high school student and him in middle school.
āNow then, itās almost time, so Iāll be leaving now.āāGo and catch your future husband.āāHeās not that kind of person!ā
No matter how much I refute it, my family and our servants still misunderstand it. Iād be lying if I said that I have zero romantic feelings, but I donāt see myself being married to him in the future. Itās because he already has someone else more suitable by his side.
āThereās no place for me between them.ā
Iāve already mustered my resolve long ago, but my heart still continues to ache. While theyāve been together since birth, Iāve only been with him for a year. I just want to be with him. Thatās all I should want for and no more.
āNo more dwelling on it. Okay.ā
Overhearing my mutter, the driver doesnāt say anything. And he wouldnāt tell a soul about it. Itās not that I ordered this from him. He does this on his own volition. I wonāt say it out loud, but I really appreciate it.
āMilady, we have arrived.āāThank you. Iāll send a message when weāre done.āāUnderstood.ā
Thereās no set time for our playdate. There are times when we finish quickly, but there are also times when we play ourselves exhausted until late evening. It only ends when weāre completely satisfied. It wonāt end until weāve blown off enough steam.
āAs I thought, he still hasnāt arrived.ā
Thereās only 15 minutes until the promised time. He always comes one hour earlier, otherwise heāll be late. He was early before, so I was expecting him to be late this time and I was right. Why does he always have to have some kind of meaningless struggle just to meet me?
āCan I take your order?āāA glass of iced tea, please.ā
I sit at my usual table and order my usual drink. Iāve gone to this cafe many times now, so Iām already somewhat of a regular. At first, we came while we were searching for a nice shop, but both of us liked the mood and atmosphere, so we made this our meeting place. But there was one problem.
āMeeting with him again?āāYes. But it seems like heāll be late this time, too.āāHeās pretty loose with time.ā
And that problem is that the daughter of the cafe owner is a classmate of mine. I didnāt notice it at first, but I yelled out loud when I bumped into her at the academy. While she didnāt tell anyone about it, I remember feeling so awkward about it.
āIāve already said this many times before, but please donāt tell anyone about this.āāAnd Iāve already told you many times that I wonāt. I donāt want this to be the kind of shop that leaks private information.ā
Iām glad she really cares about this cafe. While I do like the shopās interior, I really love the sweets here. I remember one time we ate too much, Kaori was taken aback when she saw us.
āStill, Souji is a lot older than us, right? A working adult, even.āāIs there a problem with that?āāI just donāt get how he got acquainted with you, someone from the twelve families.ā
Kaori and I became friends because of him. After all, we didnāt have anything in common until Mister and I came to this cafe. Even when heās not around, I occasionally come here to relax. Kaori and I started talking at school when I asked her to keep my meeting with Mister a secret.
āHe helped me out in the past.āāHelped you, huh? I really canāt imagine it, if you ask me. After all, you can do most things by yourself.ā
I always tried to do things by myself without relying on people first, and I just couldnāt. Because of that, I couldnāt blend in with the class and mostly spent my time alone. And Kaori was the one who resolved this. Once we started talking, she began proactively approaching me.
āWhat about the cafe?āāIām free right now, so itās fine. Otherwise, Dad wouldāve called me out.ā
Just like now, she talks with me whenever she has the time. And through Kaori, I was able to become friends with Miyako and Harumi. Since Iām such a passive-reactive person, I was really fortunate.
āI know Iāve asked this before, Kotone, but are men like Souji your type?āāAnd Iāve already said it again and again, Iām not in that kind of relationship with him.ā
Why do people always try to tie it to romance? I canāt tell her that my first love was my father either, so she probably thinks that I have yet to experience love. I really do love Mister Souji. But whether this is platonic or romantic, I canāt really say for sure.
āIf you ask me, the fact that you two secretly meet in private is really suspicious.āāItās not like weāre meeting in private. This is just where we meet at, we do play and have fun outside in public.āāIām impressed there still havenāt been rumors about you at the academy.āāItās probably because I normally give off a different impression.ā
Iām generally unassuming at school, never the one to proactively step to the forefront. However, when Iām with him, I seem to let loose and match his energy. Itās not something I consciously do; other people have just told me that itās the impression they had.
āThatās true, you do give off a really different feel when youāre with Souji,ā she said.āIām still relatively behaved here, though,ā I replied.āJust what do you two do outside?ā
Weāve gone to karaoke establishments and arcade centers, played billiards, bowling, and many other things. Since both of us are sore losers, we often get passionate when competing against each other. Heās probably the only person I can be unreserved with.
āA lot of things,ā I answered.āIām really curious, but itās probably not something for me to poke my nose into,ā she responded.
It should be fine. Heās not the type to be bothered about that. There are even times when someone suddenly joins it. Though when that happens, things spiral out of control in a lot of ways.
āI donāt want to get in the way of someone elseās budding relationship,ā she said.āAgain, we donāt have that kind of relationship.ā
Kaori always teases me like this. Do we seem that way to her? Maybe itās because I look older than a regular high schooler. It might also be why Iāve never been approached by the police even though we play around until late at night.
āStill, your partnerās really late.āāItās probably taking him some time to escape.āāFrom who?āāFrom the rogueās den people.āāThe who?āāTheyāre unhinged people.ā
I honestly have no other way to describe those people. Itās not like Iāve met everyone, Iāve only met several of them and theyāre already so exhausting. Most people would immediately be drained of their energy by those unique people.
āLooks like thereās a lot of obstacles in your love.āāAgain, itās not like that!ā
This is a certain āifā story. A world where mister didnāt get killed, where I didnāt change from how I originally was. A happy yet slightly sad dream of mine that could never come true.